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anime: PLEASE WATCH THIS ANIME!!!! song: project file: tldr; I have reached my initial goal I had when editing anime and investing so much effort into something that is highly limiting and restrictive is something I'm a lil tired of When I started editing in 2016 I said I wanted to be the best editor ever, that doesn't and won't ever exist. So after pushing myself continuously for over half a decade now to make a better edit every time I have found myself not burnt out, but creatively unfulfilled. Because anime editing revolves around recontextualising a nearly fully realised work the room for expression, relative to other mediums is heavily limited. And every step closer to push the envelope to enable more personal expression is very draining as imo, we're at the cutting edge of a young medium. Moreover, due to how the community is, I'm very lucky in this regard, most of the people who put in the hours and leg work to push said envelope see little to no recognition for this and said ideas will be subsumed and regurgitated into (imo) vapid and soulless work (sorry for being so conceited). Anyway, editing utena exacerbated these flaws because current anime editing standards are built around contemporary anime so it was a real grind to get anything out of this show as compared to darling in the franxx for example. Also with editing in a roundabout way I've gotten to the point where I started, because with all the big edits I've made (spring 2k16, BPA etc..) the amount of stuff put in brings my computer to a halt to achieve something that in another medium such as illustration or 3d wouldn't require circumnavigating a bunch of limitations that come with adding onto an already existing work. I also don't want to dwell on the negative but it is important to mention that. In my time in the community, I have experienced a fair amount of unwarranted harassment and what I can only describe as highschool level social cliques and superficiality from a lot of circles and it seems to me that I am in a very very very ultra minuscule minority of people who even see this as a creative medium and of that subset don't see editing as a chance to relive highschool. (not to say that I''ve not engaged in any ego bs myself just to say that it is very prevalent and one has to make a deliberate effort to avoid spaces and people that engage in it because of how widespread it is). All of this btw doesn't mean I will quit editing or even that I will completely stop working on serious projects but it is unsustainable for me to continuously hold myself to this unrealistic and draining standard that at first was self-imposed but now is more and more put on by others in this community. I will put my main focus in to other editing/creative things, you'll probably see me more active on IG like I am already and I would be remiss if I didn't mention how editing unironically has changed and massively improved my life; enabled me to learn a life long skill that has opened many doors already only at the age of 19; and how I will always cherish the memories and bonds formed here, however tenuous they may be, in the past and going forward. I also want to specifically thank/mention some cool beans Aron, Cuubezzz, Dolly, Jahlen, Skyvz, Miru, Krimsin, PCP, Googler, SynciNG, Lolikingx/Terril, Ruben, Kebito, Kiddytoe, Dylann, Aries, Anoxxy, the guy that lead CyberAxis and a bunch of other people. whew, that was long right how bout you take your mind off of what was just written by buying this project file it'll make you feel better:
