mild headache - i guess it never really mattered

I think ive wrote some lines that have the same sound as this I won’t ever take my Shot cause im still scared that ill miss Im being self aware so that means that its better right? It only took so many tears and so fucking much wasted time Im trying to hold onto all the good things in my life But they’ll all fade away as I let that life pass me by So I guess in the end it never really mattered Cause im still all alone my souls crushed and im shattered So I guess in the end it never really mattered Cause im still all alone my souls crushed and im shattered I guess ive just never been that good at adapting I hate the way I am the childish way that I keep acting I just want you to know I Never meant to let you down If that’s all that I can can do then I should just be in the ground I know I said id stop but im writing another song I know im the issue I will always be the thing that’s wrong Im not made for This Life i havent changed and Never will at least this Songs sounds better than the first ones that I spilt (forced rhyme) Im trying to hold onto all the good things in my life But they’ll fade away as I let that life pass me by So I guess in the end it never really mattered Cause im still all alone my souls crushed im shattered Never thought jd feel this way but I guess that no one does Guess I was born this way doomed to fail im so fucked