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“I can't lose you.“ “You won't.“ October, 2011. Twelve years old me starts to watch The Vampire Diaries for the first time. Back then, the thought this day would come never even crossed my mind. Not even once, not even in the distant future, but from there on, every thursday or friday I religiously sat by my computer, excited to see what my favorite vamps were up to next. Sadly, this day HAS come, and the show I've been watching for almost 5 years is over for me (I am getting a bit too poetic here but hang on, I've been planning this for a while now). True, season 7 is confirmed and the story goes on, but it will never be the same - never again - if Elena Gilbert is not a part of it. Lately I've been living in a sort of 'denial state' where I was just kinda depressed but it never really hit me before this episode, how it's over now, Nina is not coming back, Elena is gone and this was her goodbye. Delena is gone... I AM FUCKING DEVASTATED. I've gone through denial, sadness, and I've been SO mad - revolted even.. but now I just feel weird. I'm not gonna lie and say that I didn't expect TVD to end before, after season 4 I was just kinda hoping it DID before they ruined everything further. I wanted delena to end beautifully, both of them together, riding off to the sunset as Whintey Houston's 'I will always love you' plays on the background. And it did end, but it was just Elena. Everything goes on without her somehow.. That makes it SO MUCH WORSE. I always thought these two would end up together, they were the kind of soulmates that made my shipper heart sing with joy, but look at them.. Over. Forever. I am going into full-emo zone now but fuck that, I'm just too depressed to care. This video is freaking 7 minutes long and it's because I couldn't streach the song anymore, cause I'd make an hour of them if I could, of all the reasons why they were perfect and why after all these years my love for them only grew stronger and stronger to the point that right now it feels like I'm standing at the funeral of someone I love. That's what you get for being a fan I guess, almost every show I've ever loved has broken my heart beyond repair already, one way or another. But with Delena, I am not regretful about that one day I watched 1x03 and decided 'these two could be amazing for each other', I am happy that it happened cause if it weren't for them, for my delena, all of this never would have happened. I wouldn't have had become a vidder, or met the incredible people I did over the years, or laughed and cried and got to know MANY of the things I love nowdays. So truly, I am thankful. I will hold on to the journey rather than the end, and always remember them as the best fictional couple I've ever seen. There's never going to be a day where I don't consider delena my ultimate OTP. Never. _________________________________ Fandom: The Vampire Diaries Pairing: Damon Salvatore and Elena Gilbert Song: The Scientist Coloring: mine
