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Today’s my birthday: 37th ellipse around the sun. I’ve posted only a few times since the pandemic and this is the first post that has an image of myself in 4 years. Sometimes, it feels like my life can be partitioned into two pieces: before and after the pandemic lockdown. Life has a way of feeling like a collection of scattered memories that blur like a dream… And there was a moment that lasted for a few years when I awoke from what seemed to have been a sweet dream and a nightmare all at the same time. Making music has become ever more therapeutic yet it is also something that happens naturally — like breathing air. In hindsight, music for its own sake has been therapeutic for me for a long time. These days, music allows for transcendence where I can let go of pain. I recorded this song “Exhale” a couple of years ago during lockdown (though I shot the video shortly before this post in Jan 2024). One day, a couple of years ago, writing songs with vocals just happened out of an innate heartfelt desire to sing a song and tell my story. Recording songs for myself became like keeping a diary. It also feels like a religious ritual and hearing it back on record heals me. I thought to share this song because the song has the capacity to comfort and heal the listener (even just for an ephemeral moment). Being able to connect with you via music over the years (or simply entertain you) has always been an honor for me. And I appreciate your support over the years. Produced, performed, mixed, and film by Eldar Djangirov Mastered by Dale Becker I wonder what it feels like to be in paradise And I ponder what it feels like to never have a strife Every time I climb a mountain I feel a sense of pride Often times I try to ease my mind so I take a ride Focus on the positives to keep the mind occupied And breathe in all this fresh air just to feel alive Keep myself notified and reminded that I can thrive There's no need to fear and doubt, so I can drive Exhale and breathe I can stand on ground beneath And every day I try to find my peace Thus I keep my mind at ease I often wonder what it feels like to be fulfilled Yet perpetually believe it is feasible to rebuild When I come across a pothole on my road it can be filled Realizing happiness is deliberately instilled, huh Keep on always doing what I really love to do And aim to reframe my thoughts towards a beautiful view After all everything is gonna be ok that's true Let go of anger, regret, and sorrow for me and you Exhale and breathe I can stand on ground beneath And every day I try to find my peace Thus I keep my mind at ease
