josh/chris | you are a memory until dawn

“I'm supposed to be his best friend, and I let him down.“ “No, he let you down. he let all of us down.“ “I don't care. I'm going to get him.“ - because ouch ouch ouch my heart hurts so much. {yes I've turned into such climbing class trash that it hurts. I won't even try to deny it.} But everything about these two hurt my heart and soul, and before I start with the trashy stuff I'll make I thought I'd try and do an emotional one??? It's just these two. Their relationship makes you emotional unstable because