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Subtitles are available! (Russian is for eng language and original language) i wanted to put the songs in certain order, like a stages of acceptance. when my first relationships ended, i was feeling, like im dying. i think... this order makes a sense TIMESTAMPS ARE BELOW, BUT TRIGGER WARNING! 0:00 - Гречка - Love me, love me. (Denial. You can't believe, You think, that this is a stupid prank. You beg them to come back (literally or only in your mind).) 3:40 - Свидетельство о смерти - Autumn delirium (Anger. Shit, i like this band. This dirty punk sound is perfectly describing my mind in that time. You hate them. You hate yourself. You hate everything. Nobody understand you. They try to support you, they tell, that you will find a more good lover. Fuck you. Nobody, no one will replace them) 10:49 - Higurashi no Naku Koro ni - Dear you -Feel- (Bargaining. You remember all good times with them. Reread old messages over and over again, scroll yours photos. If you can't bring them back in reality, you can save them in your memories) 15:02 - OMORI (Cover by Pianobin) - By Your Side (Bargaining again and smooth flowing into Depression. You remember them before sleeping. You see dreams, where you and they are happy couple again. And you are the most happiest girl\boy in the world again. You do not want to wake up and live in this fucking reality, where you're alone) 17:07 - Alstroemeria Records - Against, Perfect Cherry Blossom (Depression. Endless pain. Selfharm. You have no strength for anything. For what? For what you have to go to shower, if they won't hug you, won't smell your hair and won't tell, that you are the prettiest human in the world? For what you have to cook and eat, if you won't share a meal with them, they won't say, that you are an amazing cooker? You are a fucking garbage. You deserve this suffering) 23:49 - Chernikovskaya Hata - White Night (Depression, depression, depression... Endless memories of good times. You see their figure, you hear their voice, but it all only in your dream...) 28:29 - Jack Stauber - Two Time (Depression. Maybe, you can stay friends. Gaining strength, you text them. About everything you feel. You beg... You don't know what. But you understang. They have their own life now. You don't want to to interrupt them. But you think... You deserve your happiness too.) 31:08 - OMORI (Cover by OR3O) - Good Morning (Acceptance. With pain in broken heart, diffused thounght, tearful eyes, but you start a new life) And i believe, that you, like me, can been through it. It's painfully, i know. Cry. Cry all your fucking tears, cry, beat the walls and pillows, you can even text them and throw all the shit on them, even even if they are not to blame. You will regret about it all later. But you are more important.
