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wrote this song for the most important person in my life… my mom. love you. LYRICS [hook] You know that I am sorry momma I never meant to hurt you I never meant to make you cry I only wanna see you smile x2 Growing up wasn’t the kid they believed would prosper Back when dad was gettin scripts from a crooked doctor Back when I was reading scripts from the book of vodka I used to keep half a zip in my student locker Older sis was expelled went to school at xl With all the other bad kids it made it hard to excel I was 15 was Ben taught me how to inhale Stopped praying then cuz I was used to living in hell Burnt like sage but I wasn’t on an Indian trail Before we ever went to jail was getting plenty of bales Back before your favorite rappers album lyrics were stale I kept my clientele small outta fear they would tell I use to run with the drug dealers felt like they was big brothers After pops died I had to eat so I skipped supper Bumper car love between us there’s a big buffer Running from ur own pain just made your kid suffer Leaving my crib went on a comma chase Never justified the tears put on my momma face I swear she cried for a year straight Trying to hold the family together but my hands were like clear tape easy to break Straight face cuz a smile wasn’t easy to fake And mistakes were a dime a dozen easy to make But this pill bottle felt like concrete it wasn’t easy to shake Sorry momma I never meant to hurt you I never meant to make you cry i only wanna see you smile x2 I saw the look of fear was overtaking my moms when I got signed to Birdman The studio full of dons And drugs piled next to the interface intercom Second guessing what type of person I would become She had a skepticism that wasn’t easily won From growing up in a trailer and getting beat like a drum Alcoholic parents abusing her like it’s fun They died never even acknowledging what they’d done And then she met my pops her fate was already spun He moved her up out the trailer and that was where they begun Changed her life gave her a daughter then had a son Vowed to keep her safe cuz she had no where she could run And then one day after the smoke had filled up his lungs He lost half his hands at work in an accident Got introduced to the O**C***** to Numb Then started getting high with my sister my mom was done Realizing that he had lost it all he was stunned The heaviness of his sins was weighing on him a ton 4/20 I left to school to roll me a blunt He went upstairs said his goodbye with a smoking gun See me and drugs got such a painful way we entangled We try to dance around with the devil and twist our ankles I try to take a look at my life from different angles But seems like everybody I love leave me for Angeles For making music and having fans I’m more than thankful I toured around the country got reasons I should be grateful But every time I did drugs with em I felt shameful Knowing it’s the reason my momma suffer Losing everybody that she love to downward and uppers Never strong enough to kick it for her I gotta be tougher Vowed to never take u thru the rain or ever end up the same before I die u gonna be proud of me mother I love you. Follow: ▶ Facebook: ▶ Instagram: Follow ONErpm: ▶ On Socials: ▶ On Spotify: ▶ On Apple Music:
