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one thing i have learned about myself is that i think better, faster, and more thoroughly when i am angry,.. when i have something to prove its like i am me but better in every way; smarter, more energetic, more motivated, and more logical,... actually mid way between typing this i realize that this applies more when i am anxious, especcially in large crowds or when i am in the focus of conversation,, i think that my response may be a facade i put on to hide the fact that i am panicking inwardly i usually get restless and feel deeply compelled to move, even shaking or randomly having muscle convulsions in my legs my mind starts to race at a million miles a minute so my eyes and mouth do the same i usually start to get slightly delirious and giddy at even the smallest things i dont know if i would really describe it as a better version of my usual self but i like to think that maybe i am funner to be around in that state idk this video kinda reminded me of the frantic energy i feel but i kinda feel like a li
